i had a fabuolus valentine's day by the way (not that kind of fabulous, honey...). i enjoyed myself alot. and rather than decide what i want from people ahead of time, its better just to go with the flow. its very rational, actually. i hate ambitions and agendas. why obscure the moment for a vision of the long term?

to censor oneself, or to not censor oneself?

one day i'm going to get totally busted for what i write in this blog. therefore, this is a disclaimer.

i got one of those stupid "someone has a crush on you" emails today. i'm not falling for it... (you tease!) let me be bitter and fussy and single this valentine's day in peace.

my new homework strategy is to finish one set of assignments a night. not exactly ambitious, i must say. but so far, its monday night, and i have finished all of this weeks assignments for sociology and anthro. i have 3 books to read for history, but thats it, minus chinese. i like this new concept of time management. i may even prviledge myself with a wednesday night trip to music appreciation..

my valentines focused plans are quickly dissolving. one - by valentine's day i'll be menstruating like a demon, and the sex impulse will probably all have but fled from my body, and two -- i fear that my relationship is growing more and more platonic right before my eyes, and i can't seem to stop it.. (dammit, i want to) today was the polite dinner time conversation (i admittedly was flustered the whole time), and then saturday was the disorganized chatter and nirvana mp3s. what if we're just friends? grrr. i think i am starting to pms, too. i have felt decidedly ugly ever since i got my passport photos taken earlier tonite.

bah bah bah. hell yeah, i'm the black sheep.

v-day speech draft two (multiple choice)

Q: Is this...?
A:
a) friendship
b) the yale new haven chapter of the nirvana/sonic youth fanclub
c) we like each other but are both dumb fucks

men don't like declarations. okay.