i am sick of having my very existence ignored by the person i spent the last six months of my life with.

i am sick of waiting, sick of grace periods, sick of reservering judgement, sick of waiting by the phone for overdue calls.

after two weeks of this lovelorn shiva, i have tired of heartache and am finally moving on...

that's not to say that i've succeded in constructing emotional barriers... as i've proven countless times before, distancing myself from people i love is an industry in which i am utterly useless.

tonight, however, i managed to put up several symbolic guardrails (e.g. erasing cyberspace ties) and i think that's something to build upon...

wish me luck.