i miss my dad so much.

feeling very sad, very alone, very untethered.. as well as neglected, misunderstood, walked on.

what's worse, i feel like after all of my degrees, i still can't communicate effectively with people, most importantly the people i love.

my lady sees all this torment in me but doesn't undertand any of it and dosen't ask for clarification. she doesn't understand that the only reason i'm here in this lonely stoic city is so that i can be with her. doesn't know that it hurts to be rejected when you crave human contact just so that you can be reminded that you're a human as well. makes me wonder whether or not we're a sinking ship.. hmm, perhaps if i was articulate enough to SPEAK MY MIND this situation wouldn't have gotten so hulking and suffocatingly large

you know you're having a bad day when the thought of sinking into your sheets forever feels like bliss.