i found out today that ours is coming to buffalo sunday, the day after i leave for school .. i got so frustrated, jittery and upset.. after months of trying to locate them in different cities, toronto and detroit .. i was locked out of seeing them preform because, by several hours, my home will cease to be home .. buffalo will become that far off little city, 9 hours west, rather than the logical place to breathe and exist

the whole experience made me realize that i only have 6 days left, instead of seven .. instead of eternity ... and after that countdown i'll be ripped away from home forever. despite christmas breaks and spring vacation. and those sprawling months of summer

i'll no longer moniter the weather channel for snow .. share comradery with strangers while stranded in bus depots, the victim of blizzards .. chicken wing festivals will fail to arouse me ...nor will the latest basement show, or the goings on at parties, or the downtown coffee shops, or the morning traffic on the 33 west... on august 24th i am being locked out of home so assuredly that danger lurks in my mere attempts to remain invested.. . i am losing my citizenship by only a few hours of travel ..

and the 25th is too late.