it is totally unfair of me to construct my moods this way. this stops right now. right now. period.. ( i mean it) there are so many good things here. so many people that make me smile. in order from last time made me smile ... lev, samar, osvaldo, meara, kanishk, sunny, tess, lance, jade, melinda, niiamah... well, sure there are others --- if you aren't listed, that just means you haven't made me smile in the past 2 hours. blah blah blah. i am going to sleep.