itching to redesign the website. there is too vast a dearth of radical internet protals for me to devote all of this space for myself. give me a couple of weeks, and boom. not sure what i'll do, though. in truth, it might just be a well designed links page.

my update?
these days i'm feeling scrawny and cold and very very pissed at long distance calling card services. pissed at mywebcalls.com. pissed at my socy teacher for being part of the system.

also sick of being told that i'm part of the system. sick of being worried that i am, sick of being worried that i'm not. pissed at friends and lovers for provoking all the self-questioning.

also pissed at people that don't listen well and don't know how to hug.
pissed at lance for being so goddamn far away on the continent that i'm longing for.
pissed at nike for buying up coverse. pissed at my bicycle for having a wobbly seat

tired of trying to read people's goddamn minds. tired of thinking its my business to. tired of making my happiness dependent on it. tired of moldly glasses sitting in the hallway. tired of garbage pails sitting on the front lawn.

however, i'm happy for grey pants. happy for doc martens on ebay. happy for thick socks and high top sneakers (even though i'm pissed at myself for buying counter-culture 'nikes'). happy for being cooked dinner every night.

happy for bob marley and elliott smith. happy for love.