do you ever wonder what will happen if someone finds out? would it bother you if it became your reputation, your moniker?-- *yournamehere* ?...do wonder what would happen if "harvard" or "yale" found out, or how it could limit you if someone knew?...do you worry that one day someone could expose you? -- that at your presidential inaguration, a shadow from the past would exclaim and point fingers? could you leave it all behind?...

do you ever wonder if one day you'll become addicted? that what started off as play could consume you or become your religion and culture?

do you fear that one day, there will be synapses and cells you won't be able to reach -- thoughts or abilites that have clouded over? do you every worry that your mind and consciouness will be fundamentally different than before?

is this all cliche -- over glamourized and romanticised? are you different from upperclass prep school kids who posture to rebel? -- do you want to be? is this a philosophical/psychological experiment? do you care about the ethics of it all, or do you ever attempt to rationalize things? what would you tell your kids -- the lingo or the "truth"?

what is it like to be a hypocrite?