its time that i reconfigure my emotions, erect the shields once more. if only my mind didn't thirst to dream

(translation: for the past 19 years i have more or less weeded all the extraneous "does my crush like me" ym vulnerabilty shit out of my life.... and you know what? i liked it! it would probably still be working if i wasn't so horny! everyone needs something to think about at night, and, well, i've run out of imaginary men and celebrities. its a sad sad day)

BLAH.